'Dwelling in memories..

2011-09-13T20:32:00.001+08:00

One thing at a time please.
academics is already freaking me out, pw is not looking too good, and now 导督课..
i really dont have the mental energies sia.

Dunno why i keep falling asleep in class
maybe i need sweets, or maybe i just need MORE SLEEP

MAF'2011

2011-09-11T22:38:00.001+08:00

was awesome awesome AWESOME.
Best day of this term.

[Edit] will update.

2011-08-24T22:57:00.000+08:00

fk. busted.

2011-08-23T23:25:00.002+08:00

真的很累了.
其实也不是自己给予自己太大压力
只是一方面
不想对不起自己
不想对不起别人
自己给自己设下的目标
就去加油吧.

就只希望这一切都是值得的.
有时问问自己
为什么
为什么不去找找华岗的？
最终他们是与你一起度过三年的朋友
我只能说
对不起
直到我证明了自己
我还是选择不要给自己太大压力.
对不起.

2011-08-22T22:07:00.002+08:00

Its interesting how things turn out in life i guess.
surprises at corners all around
but its nice to see things working out quite well :)

i guess college life is when you meet new friends
find new acquaintances
high school friends..
inevitable that they will slowly drift away from you
slowly
bit by bit
without you realising it
and when you do realise
isit too late?

expect the unexpected from the expected ones
and there you get
surprises everywhere.

life.

2011-08-19T22:49:00.003+08:00

Thank You Mr Lo, really :))

ahaha basketball + KOI + Gamescomm
wonderful day haha! :D

cant wait for the weekend Gamescomm ftwww :D
After that will be mugggg T_T

Jiayouuu everyone!

One of the old songs which i still find very nice :D

我可以陪你去看星星
不用再多說明我就要和你在一起
我不想又再一次和你分離
我多麼想每一次的美麗是因為你

2011-08-17T21:39:00.002+08:00

HAHA today was awesome :)
Didnt know xr scammed cj for the birthday celebration LOL.
Best "before-flag-raising-time" i've had i swear.
<3 thats why, quoted from CJ, "high school never ends". yep it never does. :)
AND YIHAI LOLOLOL
kimchi + bird egg + lily leaf (y)
Damn cj didnt eat it, but it'll really have given him stomachache probably xD
But anywayz, 华岗batchies <3

Chem SPA was stupid luh.
Did it like 8 times?
Then crossed out one result coz maximum can only put 7.
And the weather is like so stuffy and humid and SLEEPY ><
Almost fell asleep gosh.

On a side note,
Gamescomm yayy :D
Gonna get distracted like mad over the next few days :(

Tomorrow's terrible thursday again, jiayou! :)

2011-08-16T22:37:00.002+08:00

When things start slipping from your fingers
things you once cherished
things you once possessed
its hard to let go...

On a side note, hope tomorrow before flag raising will be fun yeahhhh :))
Reading cj's blog suddenly gives me reminiscence of yiyun'08.
I guess i will save the reminiscence for another day bah.

When things dont go the way you want them

2011-08-15T21:59:00.002+08:00

Do you run from it? Escape from reality? Hide yourself under a rock thinking it'll be over..?

Do you face it? Confront it right in the face?

I dont know what i am doing, really. Sometimes i wish the clock would turn back, go back to the days before orientation started, get me a fresh start on things.

Sometimes i would think, why are things happening this way.
Only after a while i would realise, i am the cause of it.

Its time to look at things with a different perspective, handle things with a different attitude.

黄城 MAF
导督课

一切为了这座城.
Lets go.

just sayin.

2011-08-09T21:13:00.002+08:00

I should probably stop thinking too much about stuff happening around me.. those stuff i am not even supposed to notice.. yeah. just sayin.

I should really get my priorities right, there's like 8 weeks? Or not even 8 weeks, to promos, and i've got PW, 导督课, academics to settle. Not a very good span of time for so many things, i would think.

On a side note, i really want to things to return to the way they were previously.. i am trying to.. but im not really trying hard, am i?

I should get started on my PW work and finish up my tutorials, yeah.
just sayin.

2011-07-19T22:08:00.000+08:00

Dumpsite for all my feelings and troubles. Lets go.

BOOM BOOM POW!

2011-01-27T22:06:00.000+08:00

Yeah! Orientation so far was awesome :D OG6 FTW!!

Rekindling the flame-

2011-01-23T20:59:00.000+08:00

After 8 months, i am.. back. :D

2010-05-09T15:03:00.001+08:00

The world is changing.

2010-04-27T19:50:00.004+08:00

I think i react to things
react to opinions
I think its .. inapplicable.
If this go on, this backstabbing will continue.
Blog wars will have no end.
I am thinking of meeting face to face.
End this whole thing once and for all.

断绝一切关系
断绝一切造成误会和伤痕的祸根

At the end of my 华岗 journey
你走你的阳光道，我过我的独木桥
We have never known each other before
And in the distant future, never will.
Fate might have brought us together once
but it had also cut the line that once joined us together.
Once.

2010-04-21T19:24:00.001+08:00

New skin, will do up misc stuff when i have time.

一个失败的导演的几句话

2010-04-21T18:43:00.002+08:00

会庆原本应该是给我们享受，给我们沉浸在欢乐中，庆祝华岗的生日
“戏约黄昏后”应是一个好玩，好发挥，让自己和伙伴们一起同欢共乐，一起演一出戏的经历

生为第一组的唯一如常中四
导演的“王位”如常降落在我的头上
对，一开始我其实非常期待
期待创造出一个充满欢乐充满欢笑的剧本
一个能够让演员真正享受，乐于其中的一部戏

我的小小愿望
粉
碎
了

我不知我是不是做出了正确的决定
不知是不是让目标冲昏了头
我不断地排练
不断地改变戏
却得到的
是一组sian到半死的组员

我是否当时应该放弃一切
让组员自己发展？
他们可能被给于的自由太少了
连自己写自己的剧本
导自己的剧本
的机会都没了
而他们面对的
是一个失败的导演
一个不知组员真心的导演
一个烂导演

可是，当时我又问自己，
他们可以自己做吗？
面对这么一组
我始终放心不下
也许是害怕他们最后搞得一团糟
或者让学长失望
我最后还是告诉自己
还是。。我做吧
而这
就是我错的第一步
我的致命伤

在回头想想
是不是我的态度，我的言行，让他们完全对戏没有兴趣？
还是我对他们太苛刻了
休息时间少，唯一能够自由自在地活动是当我不再排他们的戏时
可是，
我的戏始终还是大部分围绕着群体的
所以他们个个总是很累，很疲倦

他们的会庆
被一个烂导演给
搞
咂
了

说实在，
当整部戏演完
第一个感觉一切已经放轻松
已经恢复原样的
应该是我

我不是想说我'功劳多大，所以第一个放轻松的应该是我'
但是我想，
我当时已经打开笼子
放了他们
放了那些被困在里头五六个小时的小小心灵

我真的非常感谢启元，和嘉俊。你们两个从未抱怨过
从未告诉我'排练非常辛苦‘
而是无言地熬过去
此外，你们还不断地帮我想出点子
让事情更加容易
再次我不知如何感谢你们
我不知你们在想什么
可是我希望你们能够原谅这个失败的导演
这个让你们辛苦的导演

我真的很希望
其他的组员真的有去享受会庆
享受自己排练时的那种轻松和快乐

From: 薪瑞
还没为你剥红豆
熬成缠绵的伤口
然后一起分享
会更明白相思的哀愁
还没好好的感受
醒着亲吻的温柔
可能在我左右
你才追求
孤独的自由

有时候有时候
我会相信一切有尽头
相聚离开都有时候
没有什么会永垂不朽
可是我有时候
宁愿选择留恋不放手
等到风景都看透
也许你会陪我看细水长流

一个深深的回忆还是那么的美丽

2010-04-19T18:55:00.002+08:00

许多时候事情一瞬间而过
从未留下任何茫茫的痕迹

许多时候机会一闪一闪而过
抓住的放下的错过的

许多时候日子一天一天而过
有时开心有时难忘有时挂念

许多时候快乐时光匆匆流去
而我们应做的就是珍惜

会庆已过
剩下的
就只剩常年露营
执委接手
最后三天的玩乐
就要过一阵子
永远告别华岗
告别当作华岗的一名成员
告别当华岗那“爱捣乱”的秘书
告别当华岗在排练时的那份不散之情
告别我在这三年里
每个礼拜五包着兴致勃勃参加的活动
告别我这人生中不可缺少的一部分
这种难忘
我每天挂念
每天担心它的到来
每天痛恨每一个礼拜五过得那么快
每天尽量珍惜
尽量享受

直到我们走到交叉路口
我们还是一起度过一起享受一起爱华岗

华岗剧坊 2008-2010 <3
我人生中不可缺的一部分

2010-04-12T22:12:00.002+08:00

After reading xinrui's (new) blog, my emotions broke down.
Go read. It makes you think so much.
I'll perhaps continue.. some other time.

2010-04-08T20:38:00.002+08:00

gone.
just like that.
*poof*

leaving behind .. only a mark in our minds.

2010-04-01T18:54:00.004+08:00

Suddenly this weird feeling comes to me.
A strong burning feeling.
Indescribable.

To the sec4s, let me share with you a picture.

A falling star.
One that vanishes without trace in a matter of moments after streaking across the sky.
If you grasp the wish, you grasp the star.
However, if you let it go, it will be gone forever.
Forever.
3 and a half months is all we got.
Once our hopes are crushed forever, there is no chance of getting them back.

用心去编织每一个美梦
我们有梦，才是最美的.
不管波涛多汹涌，路途多么难，
只要我们心连心走完这条路
不管发生什么事
我们都不会后悔

I think a meeting on saturday is a must.
...?

2010-03-22T12:01:00.002+08:00

Conglomerate of feelings.
Some happy, others..

Played pool yesterday.
Getting addicted to it already.
Now i can finally hit the ball, and get it into the hole sooommmeeettiimmmessss
Though yesterday was epic funny

got one time
White ball was 15 cm from a green ball, which was 30 cm + from the corner hole
i whacked the white ball
it flew over the green ball
landed
and rolled into the hole.

...
冷掉

everyone burst out rotflmaozedong-ing

The next turn,
i whacked the ball, but i accidentally flung the stick up, and it whacked the lamp.
Ball went in, lamp shook.

-.-

Everything after that was ok, shot 2 in a row in one turn which prevented qifan from niaoing me any further

for 庆功宴，
perhaps next post.

2010-03-21T08:24:00.002+08:00

Yesterday morning it was, 1 down, 2 to go.
Now its 3 down, 0 to go.

Sec4s, graduating next year (unless the prospects of retainment seems interesting to you), will never have to do TKK again.
As for juniors, 李光前 awaits you.
*holds back laughter*
Good luck.

The past... many many days
Count in 排练， its the whole 6 days.
In VT, 3 days.
these 3 days.
Spells extremity.
Spells focus.
Spells lessons.

Happy stuff first. :)
A few people(?) that i would like to thank.

Firstly.
To hancheng :))
Who has walked through thick and thin with me throughout this whole performance
helped me with 拉幕, coordination of 道具, and discipline.
When its not serious stuff, its talking cock at lounge downstairs lol.
i think you have given your best, so dont blame yourself for anything xD
though its a few months left, and your dilemma is probably still hanging over your mind
we are all sure you will make the right decision

Also to Binhui/qifeng
for binhui, good job :)
you have proven yourself.

for qifeng, "s0fa-carriers" ftw :)

Secondly,
to tingjun :))
though i sometimes let down my seriousness
you ensured we did not stray too far.
also, thank you for the coordination of the monkeys at backstage
and helping with 拉幕 :)

Also, to XINRUI! :)))))
Although just before performance you epic 入戏/dao
but after performance you epic high :)
thanks for influencing me ^^

thirdly,
to kelin :))
Though we do not meet often coz your at stage right and im 75% at stage left,
we supported each other before the performance
and this mattered a lot :)
Thanks for all the help ^^

fourth,
to Jinyang ^^
It was epic fun at backstage with you
with us quarreling over who to do 拉幕 and whether a particular person's voice is nasaled or not
and the poking, punching, kicking, spanking, hugging.. :)
People say you violent boy? nah, i used to it liao. :)
i prefer to call it mischievous.
Have a good rest and see you tonight :))

fifth,
to pengcheng/qiyuan
Always at backstage to talk to for a few secs when bored :)
and pengcheng's "10-hugs-per-performance" policy didnt do well i guess...
coz i always epic busy during perf, running here and there -.-
but anyways congrats for doing brilliant job for 服装 xD

Also, to shyuetyng/dianyi
for teaching me how to 化妆
and for shyuetyng, thanks for staying back and talking to me on the busstop/bus yesterday :)
Really appreciate it
for dianyi....
(remember the conspiracy against pengcheng?)
haha :)

sixth,
to JOHN/reiball/songze
who did a really IMBA job at sounds/lights :)
For john, great that this year with 2/3 of last year's crew changed
you can still perform as well/if not better as compared to last year
with reiball :)
and make a informed choice :)

For reiball, hope you really learned loads.
during 艺韵 too.
Good luck.

For songze, need 传授 your skills.... :)

To 乡村儿童,
thanks for being so fun at dressing room and being my guinea pigs at 化妆 (evil laughter)
especially marcus,
coz i was really tempted to give you black as foundation rawr xD
but anyways you guys did a good job blacking yourselves.
though for some of your, if your had been a little bit more extreme with the black
your parents probably wont recognise you anymore.

To 私塾,
thanks for doing all sorts of CRAZY STUFF
at dressing room.
especially jarren/jingcheng
for jarren, who was so hyper (*cough*)
and jingcheng, for amusing us with his constant weird expressions
and shouts of "WTF i look like thailand prostitute"
and shyue tyng, for his constant guailaning :)
you guys rock :)

Shall post elaborate details latr :)

2010-03-20T08:58:00.002+08:00

I was silently reminded that i need to redefine certain things.
I will.

I was silently reminded that on some cases my words have caused misunderstandings in people.
Noted.

I was silently reminded about the numerous friendships that have either corroded away with time, or enforced with time.
*Embed in my mind*

I was silently reminded of the responsibility i have during TKK, and even if i am not the 道长, at backstage.
Er.. apart from mealtimes, Noted.

I was silently reminded of the danger of losing one's clear mind during unfortunate stuff, shant elaborate.
Noted.

I was silently reminded by my conscience of my role in 华岗. And whether i deserve it or not.
Thats probably the most important thing now, apart from TKK.

TKK is ending in 13hours+
2 shows
1 is down, but there are
2 more to go.

Till then, everything aside during perf.
focus on my responsibilities.

I cant imagine how i would feel if something screws up because of me
Like the "almost-screwed-up-平台" yesterday
which some of you guys might know

Today i need to focccccuuuuusssssss
and divert attention away from food

Alright.
go me.
go yx.

:)

On a side note... "FUCK, 平台!"

2010-03-16T20:29:00.002+08:00

Some people say they do not have the motivation to blog
Some say they are lazy to type posts every few days
I was like them last year.
"Ya la.. sian. keep blog for what. waste time update"
Seems that my mindset changed?

Or maybe it didnt.
I just need a platform to say what i want to say
Deep down?
Or inside out?
Stuff that i want to say, here, i find the place to write.

To be frank, i do not really care who reads my blog
I just treat it as a mute stranger
To pour my heart out to
Maybe not all my heart
But those stuff i wanna say

Tagboard's gone for a reason.
My blog's a mute stranger remember?
And he doesnt talk.

Time for more stuff i guess.
Its deja vu again.
Mistakes.
Screw ups.
Scoldings.
Mishaps.
Are happening again.
I got a feeling yang's trust is wavering again
Well i didnt expect him to trust much in the first place
But perhaps i was too careless today?
I dont blame anyone at all
Except myself.
Being the only bloody sec4 in that group of 道具 people
With differing personalities/mindsets
I gotta shoulder all the blame
I think im used to it
After all that happened during DramaFest
So i just emo in one quiet corner far away
Where im free from civilisation
And any scoldings/screw ups that i might do
and think about what just happened.
Sometimes i just wished time can go back
But it just cant.
When things happen, they happen.
And i blame myself for them.
The guilt is what drives you to do better
Or did it not?
Do better = yes on the actions = no on the effects/outcome

Heh. 平台. Challenge number 1 i met during TKK

~~

Now i start to ignore any misbehaviour happening from any member
I feel i do not deserve to correct them.
Until i become a perfectionist and make sure i can never screw up no matter what happens
And i can do everything at its best and not make any mistakes.
But that will probably never happen.
To others im just a puppet?
You call me do stuff.
Ok i do.
I look emo on the outside.
Okok.
I still do.
You ask me fix board
Paste back the words
Okok i do.
Other people say they want to get out of being a puppet
Well.
Get out for WHAT?
I'll rather go status quo
and be the puppet i have to be.

Heh heh. Stoning at backstage thinking about this kind of stuff
Keeps your mind off things.
And keeps me from the 101 distractants around me

~~

I think i do not even deserve to be in TKK at all.
Not even as a 道具 member
If i cant even 搬a道具 properly
ie a 平台
and fulfill my job
Why should i even be in it?
I do not deserve to.
I feel ashamed of myself.
Carrying out the duty/responsiblity which i am not even capable of doing.

~~

Suddenly i feel as if i have not learnt as much i should have
for the past 2+ years for 舞美
To talk not about 道具
I do not even know how to operate a 灯光set/do basic foundation makeup/do 服装/design a proper design
I feel again ashamed
I do not even think i deserve to be in huagang at all.
I lack the capability to.

~~

Time, might erode past memories.
Or it may not.
I know i have let you down again.
Though you said "Let past memories fade"
But i choose not to
It serves as a way for me to remember what i have done wrong
but now
Im making newer mistakes?

~~

Everything i do, i never please people.
Deja vu again?
Maybe.

~~

Until i get better, and become a perfection
I am always trapped in a cage of my own guilt
Unable to escape.
And please do not try to free me.

~人生好残忍~

2010-03-14T21:44:00.003+08:00

Seriously sometimes i dont get what you think.
Perhaps im thinking too much.
fucked up feelings? you arent alone.

~无语~

2010-03-14T17:28:00.002+08:00

亚太戏剧交流会已告一段落，画下了一个完美的句号，成为了永恒的记忆
可以先在在华岗历史上
新的一页将被我们创造
虽然许多人都不想去做
我可以看得出
可是
只剩几天了
就让它美好地发生吧

最近很高兴不会那么无聊
经常有活动
要不然我的假期就过在纳闷中

~倒数：四个月~

2010-03-13T19:26:00.002+08:00

I think i understand some people better
Maybe not that well
But definitely better

TKK is more peaceful than dramafest
Definitely
Unless you count the frustrations of yanglaoshi towards china scholars sometimes
But overall its quite ok.

The only thing i dislike is probably people sleeping around the 道具
especially ON THE COUCH.
OR AROUND IT
it pissed me and qifeng off when we have to swap locations of the sofas
and you see people like some PRCs/yu md lazing around the sofa
99% of the time 充电-ing
And especially when they are in such a deep sleep
That i have to shake them to wake them up
instead of a light tap on the shoulder
This..i give my new emoticon:

_|_ -.- _|_

Take that.

Hope shyue tyng recovers soon.
私塾 was a bit luan because people are usually not all present.
But i hope everything turns out well in the end.

我希望天上能够画过一道彩虹，照亮我的天空~

2010-03-11T20:17:00.004+08:00

I seriously dont know what to do anymore.
I think history repeated itself.
Seems like my MSG will >3.5 again.

I dont want to blame on anyone, just myself.
But the world is so unfair.
Mixing emotions from dramafest+huagang+failures
is a bad concoction
Very bad indeed.

Seems that the only thing that can make me happy
is huagang.
though now is tankk
which even historians will probably find it boring
at least during rehearsal its fun
sigh/

i want to sink into a corner
and
scream
out
loud

2010-03-09T20:43:00.002+08:00

DramaFest 结束了。
4 天的狂热
4 天的美好时光
结束了。

可是
记忆不会结束。
我永远不会忘记这些热情的马来西亚人
在第一天里
营造了轻松的气氛
在过后几天
不管在排练/讲座中
为我们提供了许多欢声笑语。
这些永远保留回忆
谢谢你们。

赛马会中学
你们在我们演出前
给与了我们那么多的支持
你们的戏是最感人的。
说实在，
我真希望能够之前有机会看完你们完整的表演
可是机会从未向我招手
无可奈何
说实在的，真的很可惜
与你们想出的时间
多么的可贵
多么的珍惜
现在，只保留回忆

时间过得好快
真后悔没有好好掌握
我们msn/facebook慢慢聊好吗?

2010-03-08T20:13:00.001+08:00

I think i need a little more time to restructure my posts.
And the 2 tests i have doesnt help either.

2010-03-05T22:11:00.003+08:00

I really dont know what percent i gave in today.
But i also dont know why my voice suddenly creak.
And i made quite a few regretful decisions.
Shant elaborate.

Did it just end, or did it just start?
I think it just started.
1 down, 2 more to go.
The amount of time i spend today practising my lines, whether is it alone, with jinyang, silently, loudly, emotionally, blankly
I'll have to double up.
tomorrow.

For i do not want history to repeat itself
And forget 台词/lack emotion during performance/pailian
It sucks to be the one feeling as if you have spoiled the whole show
and the self blame afterwards is painful.

I shant repeat history.
Never.
24 hours, 45mins to the next perf.
小巨人 jiayou.

2010-03-02T21:09:00.002+08:00

Darn.
Maybe it was the lack of solid food
or it is just over exhaustion
that made me tired again today.
Hate to admit this
but i think i only put in 70% today
and my voice screwed up for some reason
and i speculated that perhaps i had swallowed too much air

but i hope it will recover tomorrow

and i seriously feel zhou laoshi is inducing in fake confidence
i feel better if she actually reprimands me
instead of putting up a fake front and saying im "better"
which is utter bullshit
as my voice died today
and i was kinda tired

And i got IHC test tomorrow, with physics on thursday, and probably maths too.

save me.

2010-03-02T12:08:00.000+08:00

Distance.

2010-03-01T21:27:00.002+08:00

Perhaps there exists an imaginary wall
or veil
that separates me from most people.
One that solidifies and gets taller
with each passing day.

~Beyond the veil, lies the deepest secrets~

Today.
2 rehearsals.
I gave in..my 80% i guess.
I tried to focus.
Although i still stumbled a little bit on my newly established taici
I hope i did better than saturday
If not
I would seriously zibei
Perhaps i can practise more on my overall performance
I still feel im lacking a little bit of confidence.
Lets hope tomorrow is better.
I want 90% for tomorrow.
but i just hope i wouldnt get as tired as i did today.

COME ON I CAN DO IT.
and try to displease less people.

2010-03-01T09:58:00.003+08:00

Alright.
I shifted the balance between seriousness and unseriousness a little too far.
I wont make any promises now
but i will try to do what i need do.

Nothing will help.
Seriously.
Some things just cant change.
And i will not try to change it.

Perhaps except for what i have done wrong.
I'll change them.

2010-03-01T09:37:00.004+08:00

You know what?
You want to express your anger, hatred, annoyance, irritance, vexation
You tell me.
Keep it to yourself for what?
Will things change?
So your probably expecting people to change
Or realise what they have done wrong
From pure mind-reading?
I dont get you.

For one, i dont.
And dont make me resort to reading your blog to find out
To put it this way.
Im actually more upset that you did not tell me, face to face
and instead to vent your anger in black and white

Face it. You think all people are as telepatic as you and CJ?
No.
For im not.
65 billion others in the world might be.
But im not.
So if you want me to know exactly what i need to change
You tell me.

This is not what people whom you know do to you
and the word "friends" is purposely omitted
So if the truth is so hurtful
Why bother hiding it
and releasing it in a fit of anger

I dont get you.
And i never will.
i realised it this year.

Hmm. I'll just let this wall form higher and further.
And never will i care again.
I will do what i need to do.
And other than that
We will probably be people who are in the same class.
Nothing else.

I still dont get you.
And i really hope you did not purposely unattend 团圆饭 because of this particular someone
If you do
I think its dumb.
Seriously.
You let your emotions get over you too much.

Some ties are forged, some are meant to be broken. We just do not operate on the same wavelength.

2010-02-28T16:14:00.003+08:00

Guess i'll probably post about upcoming events + reconsolidate memories of some previous events, to take my mind off things.

1 day to Home Learning. The day where we indulge in the noble act of multi-tasking.
3 days to DramaFest. It marks the start to a lesson-free week, and most importantly, the time to showcase the shit we have been rehearsing the past 2 months. What a great joy and relief.
17? Days to Tan Kah Kee. The only thing i can actually even hope to enjoy is talking cock backstage/during lunch/free periods with hancheng/marcus for daoju (though marcus is acting..but well) and perhaps a sneak into control centre to watch the Gamers Association in full steam.

3-4? Weeks to 会庆. Staying back late, hanging out with seniors/talking cock under the stars (sounds wrong but its true) and bonding with juniors xD

Well. Reunion dinner. Yesterday. Was epic.
Though attendance was mediocre, and pathetic
especially seniors. Who supposedly was for whom the event was planned for in the first place
though jereld and qingyun came :) Relieved fun and epic sounds experiences with john/longjian to him.
As for the other normal members
Im pretty surprised the whole of Sec3 cohort came
which is a good thing
as although 99% were playing cards for half of the event
it had helped bond them together
i hope

those who didnt come..
They probably have their own reasons
but i was glad that at least a couple of sec4s turned up
and shared the last 团圆饭 of huagang with us
because
it will never happen next year, with us being members.
we will be seniors, and by then, i think even less will even care to turn up.

As for the event itself (to cheer up this post)
it was actually quite interesting.
Firstly, we chose 麻辣汤料, which proved to be the biggest mistake in the world
even bigger than sticking your head inside the mouth of a shark to peer at whats inside
for our stomaches started doing rickrolls/backflips/handstands/jumping jacks/running up the walls
even after the first bite
of fishball/meatball.
And guess what
i ate like 3-4 of them at one shot
throat win.

Then me and jereld decided to start a goal of finishing off 10 plates of 料
then we started piling up the finished plates at one corner
one,two...four,five
then the cleaner go clean away -.-
but at least we think we accomplished it xD

Talking with jereld with john/hancheng/longjian was epic fun
but here i want to apologise to jereld (again) for forgetting to call him before the event T_T
but anyways we relieved the interesting experienced that shook sounds after he left
which to him was probably WTF but to us it was ROTFLMAOZEDONG
but there was definitely no generation gap :)
Seniors are seriously the best to talk to sometimes :))))

Then after walking around
Talking wild,random and snazzy shots of people doing awkward (as for chengjun, cute) actions
Like playing cards o.o
But at least they had fun.
which was good
taking into account that we only have this once a year.

Also, found out that jingcheng's table also ordered 麻辣烫料
which was epic coz his face turned a bright shade of red at some point
then for some reason i laughed and laughed.
perhaps it was because i also had the similar experience T_T

After that, witnessed/heard jingcheng putting "impurities" into modi's drinks
and those supposed "impurities" turned out to be
sugar/salt/chilli/vinegar
which was probably why his drink fizzled and bubbled and produced
precipitate
yes. precipitate.
It was damn funny lol. but too bad modi never drink
if not will be damn epic scene.

Then went on to play cards with sec3s.
and halfway, nose started bleeding like siao
perhaps it was the 麻辣 stuff
zz
the tissue was like half soaked. =.="

Lastly, i was deemed famous for my "锅贴 koping acts"
like when i koped an entire tray of 锅贴 for my table
then it was 超funny coz we had a 锅贴 eating competition
then hancheng actually times it
but sadly we got a screwed timing of 1 min 20s+
which is horrendous compared to our murtabak timing
just because the 锅贴 was HOTTTT
and singed our tongues.... T_T
but the whole thing was fun xD

Lastly, the epic photo of huagang :)
Kaijin pretended to strangle me at the last shot
so it probably will turn out epic haha :)

Then on the way back,
talked with wongbak for the whole journey
interrupted by cheeyew -.-
but was very tired then
so talked less
garh.

Overall, was fun.
Hope future events
will be just as interesting.
:)

回忆中

2010-02-28T10:00:00.001+08:00

2 weeks is all it takes to change my impression of the CCA i loved.
Or rather, once loved.

2010-02-27T23:23:00.001+08:00

Just like the name of Jerald's blog, i seem to be reflecting nothingness.
A blank sheet of paper.
Empty and devoid.

Perhaps thats just what i am.
A sheet of paper.

2010-02-27T16:24:00.006+08:00

I admit i do get carried away sometimes
Especially when im a little high and everything
Yes, I admit sometimes i let loose my supposed "seriousness"

But i guess no matter what i do
I can never please anyone
Not even a tiny ounce
Or a minuscule bit

Whether its 不知不觉 or not
but it always happens
and i do not know why
i just cant please anyone.

Perhaps from now on
I shall just escape into a tiny corner
And stay there.

"He"s, "She"s and "They"s

2010-02-19T22:24:00.004+08:00

Chengjun started this. So i thought i might start one too. (:
Credits: CJ for idea :D

#1
I really dont know what life will be without him.
He can understand me, he can listen.

#2
I really want to know you better.
The distance between us is so near, yet so far.
Now i regret.
6 more months.

#3
Some people might not like him, but i feel that he is a nice friend
Not the best there is, but always friendly.
Some people just got to understand him better.

#4
Perhaps he is too direct in his words.
Perhaps he places himself away from us occasionally
But he isnt really what you think he is
Just give him once more chance.

#5
Recent events have bonded us together.
Fooling around with him at backstage is always fun.
And ticklish.
Sometimes a tad of pain.
But i dont mind.

#6
I really dunno what he is thinking.
Dont you think you should step out of that circle of delusions, and accept who she is?
Maybe you just wont understand.

#7
He has just got to change his attitude towards people.
He is making people annoyed.
But i do think he isnt that "un-good" as you think he is.
He is just unique.

#8
I do hope that hanging out with sec4s has made you understand about the responsibility you will need to shoulder in a few months
I cant bear to think of the gap that might surface
Had you not joined us barely 1 year ago.

#9
He is not happy with things happening around here.
And he does not hide it.
Just dont show it to others.
And make it so obvious.

#10
He is like a pillar of support, though not literally.
He knows what he is doing. And he does it right.
Though he might not like the way some people function, but i really think we can count on him.
Though he needs to be a bit more cheerful.

#11
He might not look like it
But he is one of those whom you can really talk to
If only i had tried to know you better in sec2
But then, i was also like you
Lost and unintegrated.

#12
If he really wants to slack off during rehearsal
Then why bother staying in the first place?

#13
I might not know what she is thinking
But i got a feeling deep down there is still acceptance
Though she denies it.

#14
Forget about the past.
Distance is only there when they imagine it to be.

#15
I just hope he not change
He is one of the only few whom has not sunk into that sea of depression
But stays cheerful and just.

#16
Last year i feel sad for not being able to spend yiyun with them
Though it doesnt exist
The desire is and was there
They are the ones who have really given me the support.

#17
Occasionally they might slack off
Me too, i admit it
But they are the ones that will stick with me till the end.
Together.
<3

#18
"He"s, "She"s, "They"s.
Happy guessing.

2010-02-03T22:02:00.001+08:00

有种说不出的感觉，可是它对我来说，多么的重要。

在戏剧营里，我们Group G虽然没有Group H 一样活泼，一样可爱，可是我们对我们的小品所付出的热情与功夫，我相信我们不会输给任何组。我们在排练中，一起欢笑，一起玩乐，一起练习，都一点一滴地流露了我们在戏剧营里所经历的。我们的剧本，虽然被认为非常草率，非常基本，缺乏戏剧性，可是我们却在小品中得到了属于我们的天堂。舞台是我们的。我们之前所经历的排练，在舞台上都得到了认可。可是，奖励却不重要。最重要的是，我们彼此认识了对方。中二的，认识了同年的伙伴。学长们，认识了他们的学弟。大家一起经历露营，经历那五天的欢乐与bonding，把大家的心连成一片。现在，回想起露营，有时还舍不得我的伙伴们，那些在露营里与我共同度过的，与我在同一个课室排练的。想起那时和翰阳，龙建，威仰一起讨论表演，与槿阳，锭涵，正轩一起在后台讲废话，偷笑精诚在游戏中ziown. 那些美好的回忆，现在很难相信就在两个月前，我们一同度过这些时光。

~Group G 2009 黄城露营~

翰阳龙建奇峰精诚骐诱俊扬墨蒂威仰奥伦槿阳锭涵正轩玉铭嘉乐俊贤

~永远的回忆~

2010-01-31T19:03:00.001+08:00

彩虹~

今天又是一个普通的一天。
可是我要的，是一道彩虹。
照亮我的心灵。

~久未放晴的天空，依旧留着你的笑容~

终于复活了 :)

2010-01-30T21:12:00.005+08:00

愿望总还是愿望，梦总还是梦.

看着学校第一学段一天一天过去，第二个礼拜，第三个礼拜，马上就要到第五个礼拜了，心里乱团团的。在上课，总是想到下课后又没有华岗，在排练/cca 时，总是珍惜着和真心朋友一起度过的时光。那些回忆，无比的珍贵，无比的怀念。在华岗只剩下半年了，就要给中三的学弟接班了，看着他们在排练时的情形，有时你想着他们，何时才能长大，何时才能为华岗想一想….

在过一个月半，就是戏剧节了，虽然现在可能认为时间还长，但是何时时间不再与我们玩弄？一转眼，就到三月了。我们的时间不多了。排练时间的重要性，杨老师还没有说吗？如果你有补习，把它取消或换时间。如果你有不正式的活动，可以不去就不要去。当我们全体都在时，如果只有你不在，真的很烦人。我们都知道，要我们全体都到齐，那时一件多么难的事，可是演出在来临的将来，我们准备工作做好了吗？想一想。

很高兴这几个月，一直有那些非常要好的朋友在身旁，和我度过华岗那些美好的时光。一起排练，一起讲废话，一起做功课，一起讨论，一起多在图书馆的一个角落偷偷看又没有人掉进我们在电脑里放下rickroll的陷阱。这些回忆，这些时光，都是十分宝贵的，因为我不知道会有几个会和我去黄诚，会在一起度过在华中的日子。他们是我唯一能说真心话的人。

汉铮，仁渊，一海，翰阳，薪瑞，龙健，承俊，学庭，茂佺，克林，庭俊，虞宙，俊浩，天钦

华岗剧坊 2010.

～回忆不一定永远是回忆，但我们要珍惜现有的回忆，把握我们度过的美好时光～